Are you a confident person? I am really not. I am always second and third guessing myself, lying awake at night wondering if I made the right decision today, and trying to make the right one tomorrow. In an effort to boost my confidence I even bought a Subaru, because their slogan is “confidence in motion.” It didn’t help.
My lack of confidence is even more disconcerting as a leader. Leaders are supposed to be full of confidence, full of faith, and inspiring stories. Not me, which is why I have recently attached myself to Gideon. He was the one who led 300 men into battle against 135,000 troops. That sounds pretty courageous, but it took quite a while to get him to that point.
Even though the angel of the Lord met him face to face, accepted his offering and promised a great victory, Gideon wanted one more sign. He took a fleece (the wool of a lamb) and put it on the ground. He then asked God to have all of the nighttime dew be only on the fleece. If he found it that way the next morning, then Gideon would believe God.
Guess what happened? Yes, just what he asked. But, even that was not good enough for Gideon. Just in case that was just circumstantial evidence, he asked God to do the opposite the next night. To make the ground wet but the fleece dry. And God condescended himself and made that happen.
Gideon goes on and leads the people, but how many times have we gone back and asked God again for something? Some affirmation that He is still with us? Part of the reason God does not always answer our laying out of the fleece like he did for Gideon is because we have something so much better . . . God’s word to study and see His hand.
So, the next time you start to second guess, go back to God’s word and be reminded that He is the God who will do what He says He will do.
“Then Gideon said to God, ‘If you will save Israel by my hand, as you have said, behold I am laying a fleece of wool on the threshing floor’ . . . And God did so that night; and it was dry on the fleece only, and on all the ground there was dew.”
The Holy Bible, English Standard Version® (ESV®)
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ESV Text Edition: 2007